CNY is coming to town soon. All the people around me are busying with their preparation of CNY. They are very excited and happy for this coming celebration. But, it's so sad. I didn't feel it anymore for this time *sob sob*. Normally, I'll be the first person to rush back to my hometown among my friends. Now, it's NOT.
I am scare.
I'm fear to face the fact. I also don't know how to face it. I know, reality is reality. It's impossible to make any changes on that. Maybe I'm just need time. I need some times to let me accept the truth. But I'm failed to do so. I'm failed to stand up bravely. I still can't accept the truth completely until now. Sometimes i even can't control myself and make myself fall into the deep and dark hole again and again *depressed*. I lose myself. Nobody can help me unless me myself. I know there are some caring people around me want to give me a hand. But I'm always make myself busy and reject all those invitation or date *I'm know that you're know who i saying :p* So sorry, I'm missed it each times. I really can't pushing myself yet and still remain on that mood less point. Please give me some times and i still remember our date.
No matter how lose you are, you still want to get along with the life. Why don't choose the happiest life? This is right. I'm can't remain on the same step there, i want to step over it. I want to find myself.
I hope i can do it with my heart.
No matter how lose you are, you still want to get along with the life. Why don't choose the happiest life? This is right. I'm can't remain on the same step there, i want to step over it. I want to find myself.
I hope i can do it with my heart.
1 comments:
aww... I'm sorry to hear this from u. Just take ur time to get back to the better track. No matter what ur going through, remember there are friends *including me* will always be here for u k? Don't worry, I believe in u, I know u'll be fine. So don't worry much and try to make urself or let other to feel better k? Take care my dear dear! =)
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